Reel of feelings ( I - Ignored) - # A to Z challenge
When she waved her last good bye after the 100th hug we gave each other , was when I felt something churning inside me . It felt like a vacuum and then everything around me seemed empty. Rose ran up to me for one last time and promised that she would write a letter every week and she never broke her promise.
No one else shared the room with me , neither did I want to . I lost my interest in food , rarely played with other children , got up sweating at night with no one to put me back to sleep. That's when Hakim Baba took over a different place in my life. There were days when all he used to do is sit and talk with me maybe expecting at least a single response. A year passed before I could say I was close to being normal and so in one of our conversations I asked " Baba, You told everyone has a mother and a father so why are you finding new ones for us " . He looked up at me and explained the meaning of orphans and mentioned that we are lucky to get 2 set of parents. I persisted along and asked him " Why did my mother never come back to pick me up , she always sang she is mine". I did not get an answer .
It was a party as usual when someone was coming to see the children, I am saying this as no one ever saw me or were not allowed to choose me . I would wander all around them and Hakim Baba would keep reminding me of one work or other. By the time I would be back, their selection would have been done. Many years later, when Naina was being going to her new house , I heard Baba requesting them to think once more about their decision and I couldn't take it anymore- I walked up to him and spoke in front of them" Baba , you have no rights to decide who should get a home or not, because of you I don't have a new home to go and will always remain an orphan. Do you have any answer for that?" . One of the few times that he did not answer again but calmly asked Ruhana to take me away. Naina did got to her new house , not the one on that day but exactly a month later , she reached her final destination where everyone of us will go . When I suddenly woke up that night, I saw Hakim Baba sitting next to me asking if I needed anything .
Today when I sat next to Hakim Baba reading Rose's letter and sharing my path to the happiness journey, he looked at me and said " Ask all you want to ask my child , I shall not ignore your questions any more".....